Windy Saturday...
Not same with my hometown....
Here quite relax because weekend just start...
There must be rushing because weekend finish...
Well...
Different places got different environment...
Study,study,study....
Online,online,online....
DIY,DIY,DIY...
Sleep,sleep,sleep...
Walk in,walk out....
Go school,back school...
Sighs...
The life was like the leaves...
Leaves that going to fad...
Becoming more boring and boring....
However....
Life has to continue...
My cousin has bought a bicycle...
O....
She asked me to buy one but I ignore....
I think walking to school will be better....
Got the feeling of high school's students....
And the wind breeze here are great....
Every time the wind were very strong and cool....
So...
Maybe these are the reasons I choose not to buy a bicycle....^^
This week is week 9 already...
Semester one seems to be finished soon....
Miss hometown...
Miss my family....
And miss my friends....
My mom keep calling me every day....
My friends...
I think they should be quite busy there because the big exam are around the corner....
Ya....
Wilbond had went back...
Me also don't know what's the reasons....
Maybe is to watch Harry Potter-Half Blood Prince with them....
Yup....
Harry Potter movie has just arrived at cinema in Malaysia....
Sighs...
They have seen that....
Afeze going to watch that tomorrow at KL....
Me want to watch with them....
But....
Sighs....
Nothing to be sad about....
Let it be me didn't have the luck to watch with them....^^
What can I do except to think like this....
Just now my friends,Bryan and Huat says got things to do....
So they were unable to accompany me to have dinner....
Giving the apologize to them then I went for my Do It Yourself(DIY)dinner...

I asked them for dinner again tomorrow...
But they say they have to go for family gathering....
By then just okay...
I told them next time still got chance....
They also very ashamed because they have pushed my invitation so many times already....
I just saying is okay to let them not to be so sorry to me....
Don't know why I more believe in them than the others....
Maybe they have know what I want since they have accompany me since the orientation weeks....
Like usual...
I will have my night walk every Friday, Saturday and sometimes Sunday....
Tonight....
Again,I'm walking alone...
Having the cool breeze....
Listening to my favourite songs through my cell phone....(The song is playing now in my blog....)
Walking slowly....
Enjoying and got double feelings....
One is cool+peace....
And another one is sad+lonely....
The cool and peace feeling will decrease the feeling of sad and lonely when I walk by....
Viewing the great panorama of new town of Kampar...
Lots of peoples,students and cars....
Like a night market....
None of the shop either people attracted me....
Just a walking by and to release my tension.....
Today still okay....
If at weekdays....
The students are loitering here and there....
A lots....
Uncountable....
You guest the students of KTAR and UTAR plus of will be a small amount???
Impossible....
Well....
Weekdays will be a peace for me....
Smiling of....
Walking back to my hostel...
Slowly and nothing....
Lots feeling of sad and lonely was gone....
However there still left there....
Wondering when will it lost....
A good Saturday comes to the end just like this....
Hopefully tomorrow will be better....

~Be Happy Forever~

Yup...
I have change the layout....
Haha....I find the layout till I dizzy....
T.T
Then is never mind..
It's going to achieve my 100 posts soon....
I would like to thanks all who are always supporting me and my cute little blog....
Must keep continue on it....
I will add oil on it....
^^
A new layout for a new me....
Haha....
Hoping a new me will put more effort on studies and be concentrate in anything that i will do...
You all also the same....^^

So....
Keep on tracking my blog posts and I will keep on posting up my life at this diary for me....
^^
Add oil....
Gambateh....
Yeah!!!!

~Be Happy Forever~
~Add Oil....++++~

Just suddenly the mood become very very down....
Me also don't know why....
At this time...
I really need somebody to care about me....
I still don't want a girlfriend....
Because it is just no the time...
Just a friends to cares about me...
My heart was strongly missing my family and friends...
It heals my heart when my mom call me everyday...
But my friends from Alor Star seems to be leave me off...
Is this mean I done nothing in your life before...
Even Chee Sian told me that juniors said after me have gone,they also feel nothing....
Am I so tiny till they can't feel me?
Many friends don't even want to share their things in Alor Star with me....
Making me become further and unknown about my hometown and them....
I still need your's support to continue my roads....
I have walked through a lot because I believe many peoples still supporting me....
But after I have life in here so long....
I think I have lost contact with all....
The strength I am having is becoming less and less....
Like I have died and has being forgotten by people from days to days....
And at the end...
Me maybe never exist in their life before....

A life of boring at here really makes me to lost in my roads...
No entertainments....
No shopping malls....
No cinema....
No bowling....
Just lots and lots of cyber cafe which I don't think I will go because there are already Internet connection in my hostel...
It was not wrong that the environment here was a great place for study...
Got mountains....
Got lakes....
Maybe I am still new here and unable to suits in so fast....
I was very envy to them who was not study at here....
Where they study in big cities....
They can have their live greatly...
With a lots of activities...
Me only can have my stress,loneliness,sadness with this blog...
Sleep,eat,and browsing the internet was the only entertainment here....
Maybe me does not know how to do or join events...
Making me feel like that....
Maybe yes and maybe no....

I have asked many people....
"Am I changed?"
Many said yes....
Let out of sighs....
Yup....
Even me also can feel that I have changed....
I have changed from a happy-go-lucky people to an emotion person....
Even me also not very understand myself nowadays....
Me don't know what to say about myself....
The evil have take over my parts?

I have done the decision before I come in here....
The external factors was the things I forgot to figure about...
So,now I get myself into trouble....
Sighs....
What to do?
The only solving problem is to use to it....
Keep walking on it....
Don't think of giving up....
Try hard to be familiar with peoples here...
Because mom and dad have put high concentration on me....
They hope on me....
I will achieve my goals...
Settle up all things...
And live quietly in somewhere else...
With my beloved....
Being forgotten...
Slowly....
Peacefully....
Left nothing lastly...

~Be Happy Forever~
~Don't worry...I won't do silly things....~